Starting from this time! I'm officially 20! yikes! Thank you Lord! <3

Not a teen anymore.

In just a few hours I have to leave and say goodbye to my teenage life. This is really a stupid feeling that I have right now. I'm not excited at all. Thinking whether I enjoyed and made the most out of my teenage life really breaks my heart. I'm starting to regret those moments that I didn't get the chance to grab them and experience them

I know the fact that I'm not  getting any younger. And if i could just wish to turn back time and be a teen forever. I never thought that this day would eventually come. This kind of moments make me say that Time really flies so damn fast.

Right now I can't say that I'm matured enough to handle some things. Inside, I still feel that I'm 18 years old. Others would say I still like 16 (is it because of my height?) LOL. When my friends tells me "Ay Jam! 20 ka na! ang tanda mo na!" I would just say "Di naman halata e!" But deep inside I really don't want to hear that I'm turning 20.

Anyway, there's nothing I can do but to accept the fact that I'm going to be 20 in a few hours from now. I have to learn to handle things on my own. Be matured enough in making decisions. And Oh! Should this be the right time to have a Guy already? hahaha. let's just wait after graduation coz there might be a conflict between my thesis and that relationship. haha. You know thesis is that damn hard that you have to get used without having a social life. </3 So there. I think everyone is going through the same phase like me. With God and with the help of my family, friends and relatives everything will be OKAY. :)

I should just be thankful that God has given me another life to enjoy every moment with my loved ones. This time I will double my effort in achieving something and will try my best to grab the opportunities that could come my way.

Now, I should just wait for what's gonna happen tomorrow. Will I get surprises? I don't think so but still I'm hoping hahaha. *crossed fingers*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! <3

Someday.

I'm a hopeless romantic kind of girl. Yes, I admit it. I have lots of expectations and standards on a guy. Seeing the sweetest pictures of couples over a blog makes me feel that someday, I should feel that magic too. I know that these will be possible for me anytime but I'm still waiting for that guy that fits my standards. 

Anyhow, I've been dreaming everyday, every night that when I will have a boyfriend, I want him to:

Hug me tight saying that he won't never let me go..

Hug me to feel the heat of my love..

He would do things that I couldn't ever imagine to be possible..

He would kiss me in the sweetest way possible..

Kiss me in the forehead like I'm her cutest baby or a little girl :)

Would always look for my hand and hold it tightly..

Will walk or drive me home, while holding my hand and sharing our thoughts to each other..

And would travel with me and one day go to Paris.. Lay down on the grass while viewing the Eiffel tower and he would express to me how much he loves me.. <3

(to be continued..)